Something That Is Helping Me Stay Strong

This is my first post. This is also my first attempt since getting the app, so far no relapses. In the first few days I had multiple urges where I almost searched up the sights but stopped myself, I even had a dream where I looked up porn, But woke up and my phone was across the room which I thought was an interesting thing to experience. I guess it had been so burned into my brain that I saw it in my dreams. So what has helped me go my first 11 days… The last week or so I started talking to women irl, as many as possible. Not only did it keep me distracted but I was always watching porn and masturbating with the intent of “maybe I’ll get to do this someday” and always told myself I was just preparing which was an unhealthy lie. So I set up 3 dates for this week. Just the eagerness alone to meet up and get to know these women is gonna get me through to the weekend for sure, but I also think I’m reworking my brain to focus on real interactions and understand that real women was always the goal, even while I was watching porn I was fantasizing about being more involved with women. I can post at the end of the week to update about how the dates went, but good or bad, just gonna focus on Why being clean is important if I want genuine connections and relationships in the future. The women I will be with deserve that much. They deserve a clean man with pure thoughts so that’s what pushes me.