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A bit of a long one

Day 0
by TJ
161 upvotes

I’m on a terrible spiral. A couple of weeks ago, I was a bout a day shy of 20 days, I noticed that I was generally more happy and focused. I got too confident and relaxed the boundaries I set for myself around certain things and unsurprisingly relapsed. Now, I can barely go two days without it. It’s even more annoying because I know exactly what to do, I just can’t get myself to do it and I’m losing patience with myself. I can feel my mental slowly slipping away and then I’m forced to leave my house and smile with everyone like I’m perfectly fine. Worst of all, I’m a Christian and it just even hits harder because I know how it’s damaging my relationship with God. When I was on my streak, I barely ever even checked social media, I almost finished a book that I’ve been putting off for the whole year, I was avidly using the resources on this app and I was loving life. I know, the solution to my situation seems very evident from all I’ve said. It’s just that the distance between where I was and where I am now seems a lot farther than what it looked like before. To anyone that’s still struggling like I am, I believe we have to set our minds on making a choice, we really have to want to stop, I guess that’s where the problem is. To those who are doing well right now, please keep going, you inspire the rest of us, well at least you inspire me as I can’t really speak for every one else. Compliments of the season to everyone who celebrates

Comments (3)
Arnold Ogutu•232d ago

Lots of typos in that one but hopefully you get the point😂

Arnold Ogutu•232d ago

Allow me to mention that you have to work hard. Yes, God shall pull you through all this but you have to haven’t in your mind that you have to work hard. YOU have to plant the seed that allows gives you the strength to resist the urge tomorrow. YOU have to engage in activities that allow you to grow and not the other way round. YOU have to know that you are in a valley and have to climb, God shall bless you with the strength to do so and keep going. But the decision, that has to be made by YOU. Well, ofcos I’m not a clean slate myself, I’ve recorded 3 months earlier this year before I spiraled down here, but now I’m a day shy of 2 weeks. And this message is not only for you but also a seed so as to be able to resist tomorrow.

Anonymous•232d ago

Brother , you are talking yourself down too much. You achieved 20 days clean, I haven’t even managed a day yet haha. My point is, please don’t be so harsh on yourself. Temptation is natural, and relapsing even more so. It is simply our human nature. The decision to quit is a brave one and being able to go so long without it is even more brave. One slip up doesn’t mean it’s over for you, nor does even 100 slip ups mean it’s over. It’s just a bump in a long journey. God has a plan for you, do not fear. You may feel as if your relationship with Jesus is distant but he is always right by your side, you just have to follow him and believe in him , especially during times where you cannot believe in yourself. I know you will win the war, even if you have lost this battle. Keep going brother. Proud of you

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