“Emptiness” day 11 journal

Even though I was the one who forced the breakup. She was my best friend. The only person who saw every side of me. The spark wasn’t there so I know what I did was right. But the loneliness is just next level at this point. I have already tried downloading dating apps just to at least talk to people. But I don’t think it’s healthy. I’ve had to fight off strong urges triggered by them. I miss her. But ofc I won’t relapse and I won’t go back