Edging

I’ve noticed recently that my mental state feels like it’s been only a week but my life tree shows 12 days. Nearly double the time that it’s been since i last relapse and with that I’ve felt disconnected. I had more flashbacks to older memories. It set me up for me slipping just tonight and surfed for porn. I’m blessed that i can control my urge most of the time to not masturbate. But edging is just the prepping stage to eventually relapse. Normally it would take me a week after my last relapse to fall again. I’m grateful for this app to continue seeing me my progress but It shows i definitely have ways to go. I pray that these disconnected feelings will be replaced by other good memories and habits.