Interesting, anyone else this experience?
Im 115 days without masturbation… still every now and then I love to read erotica, both fictional and, if you could call it erotica: Scientific (eg the books by Nancy Friday). One intrigues, one broadens my mind, yet both kind of get me open for my partner and life in general (actually Nancy Fridays books are about sexual fantasies and I got them recommended as part of my coaching studies). To be fully honest, I even watch porn every now and then (I mean the real deal, images or even video clips), yet porn does not touch me at all anymore, no excitement, no temptation for masturbation or else. It’s just boring - and nothing bot 5, maybe 10 minuets spent. I would not even consider it relapse, as my target is to be free of masturbation, especially masturbation to porn.
I struggled with masturbation first, and found porn to be an addition rather than a catalyst to masturbate. If a goal is freedom from masturbation to porn, why watch it even if it doesn't affect you?