Relapsed Today – But I’m Still In This Fight

Today, April 15th, I relapsed. The irony is heavy — I fell into the exact trap I warned others about: being alone. I was doing well throughout the week, but once I had to spend a few days in solitude, the urges started creeping in. As a single man, the sexual appetite hit hard, and I gave in. But here’s the thing: It didn’t happen all at once. It was gradual, and I saw it coming. It started with me watching sexually suggestive content on Instagram, then shifting over to X.com, where I slipped. That’s where I crossed the line. Small win though: my digital blockers held strong — I couldn’t access any porn sites, which means I’ve still got tools working in my favor. But I now know that X.com needs to be blocked too. Lesson learned. No excuses. I’m taking full responsibility. The same way I post my wins and advice, I’m going to post my falls too. This is a journey — and staying clean for a week is still a win. Now we go again. Let’s aim for 2 weeks and beyond. And if there’s one thing I want myself and anyone reading this to remember, it’s this: Don’t count the times you fell. Count the times you got back up. Be steadfast. We’re not here to be perfect — we’re here to grow stronger.