Almost at 9 days

I haven’t really had any urges to look at porn but I have this undeniable desire to be near my ex fiancé seek her out. Not sexually per-say but just to be near to her feel her warmth, smell her hair, see those eyes. It’s all that I want. I don’t want another woman I don’t want 10 I want her. And I continue to ask God for his direction and his wisdom because I understand that I have a lustful attachment to her, but I desperately desire for my spirit to be free to love her as God loves me.