I don’t want to do it but I do it anyway
I just relapsed and the entire time I was trying to fight it off and close the app (Reddit in this case; since deleted and blocked) but I couldn’t pull myself away. Even during the act I felt like shit and wanted to stop knowing how it would make me feel afterwards but i didn’t stop. This is so hard for me. I’ve been fighting this since 7 years old and I am 21 now. Any words of encouragement?
And to piggyback off of what “you” said above, it is certainly a journey. I’m 28 now and I wish I would have been as serious about quitting at the age of 21 as I am now. I was exposed to porn at a very young age as well (around 8 years old). That is years of brain wiring that isn’t going to change over night. Don’t beat yourself up when you relapse, that will only send you into a downward spiral that will cause you to relapse again and keep the cycle going.