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I don’t want to do it but I do it anyway

Day 0
by John
56 upvotes

I just relapsed and the entire time I was trying to fight it off and close the app (Reddit in this case; since deleted and blocked) but I couldn’t pull myself away. Even during the act I felt like shit and wanted to stop knowing how it would make me feel afterwards but i didn’t stop. This is so hard for me. I’ve been fighting this since 7 years old and I am 21 now. Any words of encouragement?

Comments (5)
JT77d ago

And to piggyback off of what “you” said above, it is certainly a journey. I’m 28 now and I wish I would have been as serious about quitting at the age of 21 as I am now. I was exposed to porn at a very young age as well (around 8 years old). That is years of brain wiring that isn’t going to change over night. Don’t beat yourself up when you relapse, that will only send you into a downward spiral that will cause you to relapse again and keep the cycle going.

JT77d ago

“For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” Romans 7:15 We all struggle with doing what we know we should not, even the Apostle Paul. In these moments I cry out to the Lord, He can change your heart in an instant. It’s not easy to do, sometimes your flesh overrides your desire to do good, but you have the ability to cry out to God. One other thing that has helped me is having an accountability partner that I reach out to in these moments, that also helps to set me straight. Again, I know it’s not always easy and it’s not always perfect, but having God and your accountability partner to reach out to can make a huge difference. Keep fighting brother

You77d ago

I'm 31, it's a journey my guy. Also I'm getting close to my 90 days and I had about 5 relapses but if you really think about it. That's gonna be 85 days on no porn out of 90 days which is incredible! Once you relapse, don't beat yourself up. Make a note on why and keep it pushing. Sometimes it helps be on anti depressants if need be for underlying mental health struggles. You got this brotha!

Miyamoto77d ago

Find something you love to do and take action in doing so. I believe in you , you’re young and full energy so get out there and do something you love.

Miyamoto77d ago

I’m on day 1 don’t give up you’ll stop I trust you will stop. The best advice my sister gave me is keep yourself busy.

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