I hate this feeling

I more than anything hate this feeling. Recently I’ve had the biggest “crush” on a girl I’ve known for a couple years and I know that before I would want to be in a relationship with her I want to get rid of being addicted to porn. I hate that I have these temptations and that I can’t trust God enough and give this up. I won’t give up, it’s just been a difficult battle that I just want to be over