Why do I feel like part of me wants to watch

I mean it’s literally an addiction. But more psychologically it can be coping mechanism too. When you’re stressed or lonely or bored the feeling of wanting to watch will come back .. do the opposite. Stay busy, take melatonin and force yourself to change your sleep schedule

Totally normal to feel that. Your body is programmed to want physical intimacy. The problem with porn is that it’s a highly concentrated counterfeit. So you have to retrain your brain to want healthy intimacy. It’s doable. It just takes practice.