Enough is Enough

For men to actualize purpose, we must get to that place of deciding enough is enough. It is from that point that things will surely turn around. When we choose to stand on business, avoiding over-dependence on the false God that is pleasure, instead erecting proper and functional structures that prop us towards the life we claim to desire. I got to that point recently . And i have decided I am not turning back. I am tired of porn, in all its forms. I am tired of my brain normalizing weird thought patterns. I am tired of a weak erections whenever a lady comes around. Tired of stained garments and smelly sheets. Tired of being unable to pay attention, or to lock in. Tired that whenever I see a name like ‘kira’ for instance, my brain immediately goes to a pornstar with a similar name, of course there’s many. I am tired of not being man enough to discipline my impulses. Tired of this demon that is hard to fight, but eager to wage a fight once and for all. I am not going back. I refuse to deal with my addiction with kindness. I refuse to leave room for it to come back into my life. I refuse to entertain the temptations that are ever so present. So help me God. Grant me the grace to wage a worthy war. Cleanse my mind, and heart, from that which has been deposited therein in the last 12 years. Give me a chance, only one chance, to win this fight. And I pray the same for all aboard this train. That we will have the mental strength to quit. That we will have the psychological strength to persevere. And that we will have the emotional strength to fight the urge when (not if) it presents itself