Conflicted emotions
Last night I got head after being on this 4 day streak of no porn or masturbating. It felt good in the moment but for some reason all I’ve been able to think about since is that it was pretty much another meaningless nut, just with someone else. Has anyone else experienced this? My goal isn’t semen retention but it’s starting to feel like that’s what it needs to be for some time.
If this woman wasn’t a woman whom you had a legitimate emotional connection with and was in some way invested in, then it brings about similar feelings that porn does. You’re both using each other for your bodies, or at the very least you’re using hers, and there’s no significant meaning in the interaction.