Day 2- Feeling Good

When I was starting this journey at first I thought it was like all the other times I’d quit in the past, but when it started by asking me what porn does for me and provides me, it felt different. I realized porn doesn’t do anything but hurt me and make me feel like a failure. It doesn’t make me feel good. It doesn’t make be faster, stronger, smarter, or a better person. It convinces me that I need it though, slowly and surely becoming the most important thing in my life. It has consistently been the thing I’ve looked forward to the most since I got hooked. Every time I’ve tried quitting in the past I’ve relapsed because I couldn’t help not having something to look forward to. I hate that it’s become that important to me. I’m quitting because there are more important things in life. There are other things to look forward to. This can’t be all there is for me. I’m going on Day 2 free of the little green monster and hoping to starve him out till there’s nothing left.