45 Days - The dark reality of how it can feel.
I see a lot of posts talking about how great they feel after quitting for 30, 45 or more days and expected to feel just that way when i reached those milestones. I’m currently still in a flatline and have been for the majority of my recovery, i thought i would share how i feel this far in. Most noticibly my libido is still absolutely shot, in the last couple days i have noticed it creep up a tiny bit (maybe from a 0 to a 1 or a 2 in the mornings). PIED still feels quite active but am just beggining to see it lessen aswell. Despite not really getting turned on, regularly i have wet dreams. Up until recently i have felt utterly depressed, low self esteem, low energy, low libido and low attraction to the opposite sex. This too has been increasing in the last couple days but it can be absolutely brutal and you mustn’t let that let you relapse. Porn is an addiction to dopamine and the withdrawal symptoms are very real. On the upside, i am more confident, sleeping a LOT better and am re-capturing a lot of my aspirations (which is tough when you feel so un-energetic) i’m certain that with continued abstinence i will receive the desired effects and things will only get better but be aware it can definitely get worse before it gets better. Stay strong guys ❤️.
I was in like in a 3 weeks flatline but now in day 77 and better than ever