Lonely
Day 1
by Bob W
182 upvotes
The worst thing about this addiction is I know exactly why I have it. I’m lonely, extremely lonely. I do online school and only live with my dad, so most days the only human contact I have is with him. I use porn as an escape, if I’m feeling lonely I’ll just watch porn, but it just makes me feel more lonely. Sometimes it feels like I’ll be like this forever. I can barely make it 2 days before I break my streak. My longest streak is five days. I become obsessed with the few women in my life, and my brain always goes towards a romantic relationship instead of just being normal. I wish you all well on your journey and I’m glad this app exists so I have someone or something to vent to.
Bob it seems you are trapped in this vicious cycle of endless urges and lustful temptations. You are alone so to feel something you watch porn. After you watch porn you prob feel horrible about yourself and feel like you dont deserve to be with anyone. Because you are living in this constant chain of rinse and repeat, its impossible to not fall into temptation. The key is to break the pattern, shatter that cycle and do something spontaneous. You need to have a fuck it moment, let me sign up for a sport I find interesting, why not go for a run, throw yourself out there. There’s something beautiful I have personally found in saying fuck it and putting myself in a random situation because opportunity comes and distracts me. My life has now been introduced to a potential new discipline, you may also meet people who know people who know people, the possibilities are endless only if you say fuck it. God feeds every bird in the sky but he does not go around dropping worms from the sky into their nest. Go out and experience life aimlessly! FUCK IT.