Day 4- nearly relapsed into old habits
So I’m on day 4 and today is also my Birthday. But I almost relapsed into masturbating to porn again and was even going to leave my house at midnight to meet up with an escort for sex. I tried to use the panic button before all this started but it wasn’t working, but I can’t always use the panic button so I improvised. I put down my phone, and start getting real and deep with what’s going on in my mind and my life. I’ve deleted all the escorts numbers I had as well as all the tabs and porn websites I had up on my phone/Laptop. I realised that I will not find love in escorts or porn and I’m only stuffing a temporary hole with ice that will melt… I’m going to keep grinding and keep pushing cause I’m going to get to day 30 no matter what!!!!
Amen brother! That's just it, that was the old you. Your creating a new identity, embrace it. Don't think of it like running a race and your aiming for the finish line. Rather, that this is now you and your lifestyle, and the goal is just arbitrary. You deleting all that stuff: we are the choices we make. And it seems you have made the right choices man, keep it up!