A Broken Streak, Difficult Cycle

I recently relapsed after a 48 day streak. It had been some solid time since I viewed pornography and relapsed that I forgot how difficult the initial cycle can be hard to get out of. I realized that since I had not viewed pornography in so long, no image of it ever appeared in my head; of course lustful thought existed, but nothing compared to the intensity and vividness of pornography. Later in the day, after I had relapsed, I had remembered and reimagined what I watched and it hit me, in that moment, just how easy it is to get caught in a cycle when you have so much different pornographic material that can play in your head. I will say that making it this far in the first place has matured me and allowed me to grow more spiritually. Its allowed my mind to be set on higher goals, its allowed me to respect and view my girlfriend the way God intended, its given me more motivation to continue with school, and its given me more discipline than I ever thought i’d have. I thank God for allowing me to make it that far and continue to seek Him now. I know we can break out this difficult cycle and can continue to cleanse our souls and mind. I will make it past 48 days and I pray I never view it again. The Lord gives you strength when you’re weak, we got this guys. I’m always praying for ya’ll. Galatians‬ ‭6‬:‭9‬ (NLT) “So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.”