Failed again

After 12 days I failed. Was doing so well. I wasn’t even thinking about doing it again. The temptation was never there. Until today. I knew my girl wasn’t going to be home today. And I thought to myself this is the time where I usually relapse and told Myself I was doing well and I wasn’t going to… but it was playing about it in my head was all day. And it’s only till I got into bed. I was trying to distract myself with other things but the urge just was stronger… Ngl kinda gutted but it’s happened now. I was going to do a testosterone test to see how well I’ve progressed since the last one. And now I feel like I’ve let myself down again. Started hitting gym. Taking vitamins. Eating healthy. Less social media content. All preparing to take the next test but I feel like I’ve let myself down…