A shaky 8 days
I got sick randomly and my body did not want anything lol. No alcohol, no sex drive, no nicotine, barely any weed. It was so weird but honestly so refreshing. I travel for work so I’m usually alone but recently I’ve been getting out so I don’t fall short. Last night I was fighting for my life to watch porn and I didn’t, but I woke up feeling like I did and I was sooo worried but I also woke up CRAVING my girlfriend too bad we are in a long distance relationship but anyways, has anyone felt SUPER overwhelmed on days like this. I’m getting some grounding in pretty late in the day but I’m still getting it because I started feeling overwhelmed with this feeling and really feeling disregulated. Not only that I know I’m supposed to feel on top of the world and confident but I’m feeling like my gf is cheating or doing something behind my back and it’s so weird because I’m in a great and healthy relationship but I’ve also struggled with confidence in a relationship before. Sooo a huge tsunami of WTFFF lol. Anyways happy Sunday!! I hope everyone has been doing great!
respect to you for getting through last night, i feel it too my gf and i can barely see each other. my addiction made me have no confidence either even though we were happy id sabotage it because i didnt feel worthy. your not alone