Losing my fire for God.
I have a confession to make and I feel better saying it out in the open because I’ve been on this app long enough to feel like I can trust a few of you on here :). I post about God all the time about how he helps me with this struggle of lust, how he’s always here for me when I need it, and I give advice to others struggling about how they can come up with their temptations and urges through Christ. But honestly…I haven’t felt connected with God for months. I knew God since I was a little kid. I used to read my children’s bible alllll the time literally when eating, when I first woke up, brought it to school with me, I had coloring books on Bible stories and I felt happy and great. Now im 20 years old turning 21 in a couple months and I feel like I lost my fire for him. I don’t talk to him and when I do im just asking for things, I don’t read my Bible anymore because I really don’t feel like it even though I know I want to, I still lie and gossip and have premarital sex even though I feel so convicted when doing it, and I feel like reading my Bible or praying is a chore and not genuinely wanting to be in his presence…and when I repent it doesn’t feel sincere. I apologize but in the back of my head I know Im gonna do it again and just apologize for it again and I hate that. I also have a lot of doubts..some part of me says Jesus died a long time ago and he’s just dead but the bigger part of me says he’s still alive and listening to me..but im an over thinker and my mind is just everywhere. Just thought I would share and get some advice :)
@Juan - 208? You probably don’t live far from me. I’m glad you are here! The community we live in is full of faith, it’s almost bursting at the seams! God bless you, brother!