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Losing my fire for God.

Day 44
by Mikayla
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I have a confession to make and I feel better saying it out in the open because I’ve been on this app long enough to feel like I can trust a few of you on here :). I post about God all the time about how he helps me with this struggle of lust, how he’s always here for me when I need it, and I give advice to others struggling about how they can come up with their temptations and urges through Christ. But honestly…I haven’t felt connected with God for months. I knew God since I was a little kid. I used to read my children’s bible alllll the time literally when eating, when I first woke up, brought it to school with me, I had coloring books on Bible stories and I felt happy and great. Now im 20 years old turning 21 in a couple months and I feel like I lost my fire for him. I don’t talk to him and when I do im just asking for things, I don’t read my Bible anymore because I really don’t feel like it even though I know I want to, I still lie and gossip and have premarital sex even though I feel so convicted when doing it, and I feel like reading my Bible or praying is a chore and not genuinely wanting to be in his presence…and when I repent it doesn’t feel sincere. I apologize but in the back of my head I know Im gonna do it again and just apologize for it again and I hate that. I also have a lot of doubts..some part of me says Jesus died a long time ago and he’s just dead but the bigger part of me says he’s still alive and listening to me..but im an over thinker and my mind is just everywhere. Just thought I would share and get some advice :)

Comments (9)
Robert101d ago

@Juan - 208? You probably don’t live far from me. I’m glad you are here! The community we live in is full of faith, it’s almost bursting at the seams! God bless you, brother!

Mikayla 101d ago

@You I used to have a mentor from my church but after all my constant questions he gave up on me a couple months ago. Kinda sucks but I shouldn’t let him stop me from going to church all together :) thank you!

Mikayla 101d ago

@Robert thank you once again for your kind and honest words..im scared that I won’t pull out of this and get denied when I pass from this world. I have people I wanna see when my time is up..and most of all I want to see Jesus..and I appreciate you and Michael for your posts it’s the only reason why I am still at the streak I am. I’m proud to claim you both as brothers in Christ 🤍

You101d ago

Also find pastors that you love and speak Truth, and listen to their sermons. I do this a lot, and love it. John Pokluda (JP) is a great one!

You101d ago

I know exactly how this feels, and my friend experienced the same thing. I would highly suggest going to church and getting discipled by a mentor or anyone close to the Lord. My friend was kind of my mentor for the past year, and she helped me out A Lot. I would also surround yourself with people who love Jesus more than you. Ask God to lead you to a church. Mine has a young adults ministry, and it is life changing. It has lile 30 young adults, and we are all so vurnerable with each other. It is so good to find a Godly community! We need community to stay strong. Ask God to soften your heart, and work on your sins. Work on producing the fruit of the spirit.

Robert101d ago

I wrote 2 responses that accidentally got deleted. One after the next. I believe it is because God was working through Michael and he absolutely had the Lord’s wisdom placed within him. This was very well said, Michael. Mikayla, I praise the Lord that you had the courage to speak about what was on your heart! Scripture says that we cannot serve two masters, otherwise we will grow to love one and despise the other. In this case, what the world has to offer and what God has to offer. I pray you may find the true master and choose Him even when the world desperately wants you back.

Mikayla 101d ago

@ Juan thank you! Though im a girl is it still okay to connect? @ Michael thank you for this I needed that..my flesh is refusing to let me open the word but I have to be stronger than that.

Juan101d ago

brother i would love to connect and talk you through this! My number is 208-810-5776!! I’m 23 years old and have been on fire for God for the last 3 years. He changed my life.

Michael101d ago

I know exactly what you mean. I just have to remind myself that how I feel is not always truth. In fact, it usually isn’t. “The heart is deceitful above all things, And desperately wicked; who can know it?” Jeremiah 17:9 The truth is we’re NOT always going to feel his presence, we’re NOT always going to feel hungry, or passionate, or on fire, or zealous. Sometimes we have to be faithful without feeling his presence, we have to worship without feeling passionate, and we have to devour the word without feeling the fire. That’s why they’re called spiritual disciplines, because we have to discipline ourselves to do them even when we’re not feeling it. Truthfully, I usually don’t feel like God’s forgiven me for the multitude of mistakes I’ve made but scripture says if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive. So, who or what do I believe? My feelings or the Word of God? For you, you don’t feel connected to God but scripture says draw near to God and he will draw near to you. So who or what will you believe? Your feelings? Or the Word of God?

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