Relapsed Twice in One Day

I’m stuck in a relapse cycle. Nothing seems to be going right this year. My girlfriend wants us to move out together, but I lost my job. Been applying for almost 5 months now to places but no luck. I feel so much guilt and shame and it doesn’t help I’m trying to quit porn. My urges are strong this year with how shit everything has been. Every project I’m trying to do seems like I’ll never get it done. I have very very little confidence in myself at all and I just feel worse and worse whenever I give in to the urges. I look at hentai and hardcore stuff often and I know I shouldn’t, I can’t even stay fully aroused half the time, since I know it’s so wrong and would rather be with my partner, but I make myself finish anyways. We haven’t had sex in almost a month for several reasons, that’s not helping my urges too. I just feel so down and stuck.