I gotta fight back

I have been watching my videos with my gf and stroking my meat pretty much nightly. There are a few nights I don’t do it but I feel weird without it. Any advice on removing it from my life completely? I am pretty sexual and I love sex in real life. I haven’t nutted but the edges are getting close and it’s for no reason really cuz I’m not even that horny because if this adderall I’ve been taking.