I’ve had it. I’ve talked to counselors, been through a few SA meetings, and nothing seems to work. I have been losing this fight and losing my marriage due to this. I have tried doing other things like running for miles and miles, continued college while in the military and nothing seems to distract me fully from porn. It gets worse every time my wife and I have an argument. I have been very bad to her and she doesn’t deserve any of it. I say hurtful things and instead of apologizing, I end up looking at porn sites, invest my time and energy on strangers. I know I got this but even though it seems like it’s too late to save the marriage, I still want to clean myself. I’ve quit alcohol with no problem, I know I can quit porn.