Almost 8 days in and I feel a void inside me

I have felt this void many, many times over the past 13 years of trying to recover from PMO. The period between 7-14 days is the hardest, because that's when your mind is playing the most tricks on you. I also start to realise how big of a crutch the act of PMO is. It is an easy escape, but it always solves nothing. It only gets us what we really want out of life. What do I want? I don't know. I need to find that out while there is still time. I am soon to turn 34 and it scares me. I have achieved some things in those 13 years, but I know I can do better. Just checking in, really. I could expand on this but it is 10 minutes before midnight and I need to get ready to go to sleep. Stay strong, all