I wonder where I’d be now; If i quit any other time I said I would ?

It’s not until you look at the parts of yourself you dislike; can you link it back to porn. It’s only at this point where I finally decided to quick. The problem is, it’s already too late! It’s so built into my brain, I didn’t even realise it was an addiction. I hope this is the end. But i’ve been on long steaks before and relapsed once. Which inevitable leads to the same cycle again. If i succeeded any other time I thought I would quit, I wonder where I would be now?