⚔️QUITTR GANG⚔️
Im 36 Been in the fight since I was first exposed to porn at the age of 9 or 10. That coupled with a toxic home life growing up as a young man distorted my view version of what I believed love was. This manipulated and distorted every relationship I’ve ever had. Through narcissistic habits, and womanizing. I tried to validate and find my own self-worth through approval and through sexual encounters that I could control. I’m absolutely exhausted and I felt like giving up so many times. If you would’ve told me that it would’ve had such a negative impact on my life 20 years ago, I wouldn’t have believed you. But now, in hindsight, I can see how evil this thing is and how serious it needs to be taken. The only thing that kept me humble and coming back to try to find FREEDOM was my relationship with God. And the hope that real freedom existed. Been married for going on 13 years now and have 4 kids. I thought getting married or having kids would’ve helped me to stop this destructive habit but every time It only pushed me further into my shame when it didn’t. I feel like for the past decade I’ve missed so many opportunities and have not been the man that I could’ve been the husband or the father. Feeling like I’m only living to 10% of my potential. I was asked recently if I’ve ever had months of freedom or even years and it broke me because I realized I haven’t haven’t had 30 days for as long as I’ve struggled with this. It has led me to darker places than I would like to admit. And gone places that I wish I never had and done things that I can’t take back. What was once a fantasy behind a screen, eventually broken into my reality and still it didn’t feel real, but the consequences are ! nothing has ever satisfied the thirst or the hunger of my flesh. Except for Jesus. Recently turned my life over to him in this area that I’ve hid from him or at least I thought I was hiding it from him and I’m stepping in the truth, painful brutal honesty. This thing will kill you if we don’t own it and address it as such. An absolute monster that must be slain with no mercy! Today’s day one! ⚔️ Thank you QUITTR
I totally understand, brother. I'm 55. 43 years addicted before I finally found the QUITTR so and made a commitment with support I believe will help me actually sized this time. I know that there decisions you and I, and do many others here, have made are in agreement with God's will for our lives. He always helps us when we are working to obey Him and accomplish His will! We can do this! You can do this! I believe in you! It is worth it! You are worth it!