on fear

I’ve been focusing on what’s triggering me and it’s helped a lot. Despite relapsing today, I realized that fear of letting my partner down is actually pushing me in the direction of relapsing, as a way to make the fear go away. So I realized I need to focus more on myself in this, and kind of disregard that guilt of being a bad partner, for the greater good of actually overcoming this. I know I’m doing my best. So I feel good, I know I’m gonna overcome this and that it’s just a matter of time. Lmk if you guys have experienced similar things with ur partners, any advice would be appreciated a lot ty