Anyone but.

This last January, I met a girl. Lovely, caring, and always wanted to hear from me. We spoke every day, hung out on calls for hours at a time, and I quit my addiction for her. I was 43 days sober at my hight, the longest I’ve been sober since I was 14. She told me things I never thought I’d hear, made me feel seen and loved. Then this past April… she cheated on me. She left me in the dust for another man with no excuse, reason, or remorse. She made sure to make it public, which hurt, since she kept me a secret from her family. I was heartbroken and I relapsed. I used porn to fill the void. Chatbots, games, as well as videos and pictures, it only got worse and worse. As I started healing, I started to pray for my future wife, someone who wouldn’t leave me like she did, and I realized I’m the kind of man I’ve been praying stays away from my future wife. Not for the girl who cheated on me, but for the woman who won’t, I need to be the man she needs me to be, and that starts today.