Feeling Blah
Day 38
by N8
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Feeling pretty blah today. Some heavy family drama last night. I smoked weed to escape, and ate a lot of shitty food to clearly disassociate. Today I’m feeling down. I want drug of choice. I keep asking God to remove this from me, to restore me to sanity. I can’t afford to relapse, I can’t afford to get stuck in the cycle. I need this, for me, for my kids, for my wife. Stay strong Nate, stay strong! God I turn my life and my will over to you.
Don’t use it as an escape, or for any other reason either. If you start looking for a crutch sooner or later you may return to PMO. Sit with the discomfort and embrace it, better days are ahead