Reason number 8 of why I want to quit porn. The shame after relapsing

After downloading this app I went 15 days, which is the longest I have gone with out porn for years. Unfortunately last Sunday I relapsed and this Thursday morning I relapsed. Let me tell you it sucks. Knowing you went 15 days and then 3 is horrible. Progress nonetheless but still. The shame, the guilt and the lack of motivation all came swooping back. After those 15 days which I can only describe as refreshing, I have been tired, stressed unmotivated and unable to be confident in myself. After I tasted what it was like to actually be away from that addiction, for over 2 weeks. I honestly want that feeling so much more than any brief feeling porn brings me. Because it is immediately left with shame, guilt and anger. I beat myself up because I care really deeply about this, and I want to do everything possible to quit. After a relapse I can honestly say it’s never worth it. The 10-20 minutes is never worth the rest of the night and next day thinking about it, feeling ashamed all the next day, unmotivated, feeling like life is pointless. But after a brief taste of what freedom is like. I want it even more. I want to be free.