14 Days

When I first started this journey 14 days ago I really didn’t know what to expect. I’ve tried starting this journey so many times I’ve lost count. Over the past few years I’ve really realized how much of a problem I have. I’ve spent hours jerking off and I’ve spent hundreds of dollars on porn sites and onlyfans content. Probably thousands if we are being really honest. A few weeks ago I got the push I really needed to take the step towards defeating my porn addiction. I came across this app on TikTok and I looked into it. In my head I just thought “another sobriety app that isn’t going to do shit for me”. Genuinely I couldn’t have been more wrong. I knew this app was different when I made the purchase and I broke down crying. As I said before I have tried to quit before but this was my first real time committing to it and it’s gone better than I could’ve ever expected. So why am I saying something now? Why not announce my fight against porn on day 1 and make that verbal and public commitment to defeating my addiction? Well to be honest I didn’t think I’d make it more than a couple days. To this point I haven’t proved to myself that I can truly commit to this fight and stay committed. I’ve never made past 5 days in my almost three years of “trying” to beat this addiction. Now I’m 14 days sober and I’m really proud of myself. Which is honest a fairly foreign feeling to me because I’m really hard on myself. Especially about my reliance on porn. For the first time ever I genuinely believe I can beat my addiction. Like I said I felt like it was time to make my fight public. I really don’t have anyway I can talk to about this aspect of my life so I felt like I should share it with you guys. My hope is that maybe I can inspire someone or just be a relatable post that people can resonate with. But even if I can’t do any of these things I’m proud to be a part of this community and I’m proud of all of you for committing to your fight against your addiction. It takes real courage to admit you have a problem so be proud of yourselves. Rome wasn’t built in a day, but they were laying bricks every hour.