Finding my roots

This past week I have been reflecting and thinking about what my roots to my addiction are. I have been narrowing it down but I find that I just really want to be in a relationship at times and that is what makes me want to spank the monkey. I know I am just trying to replace real relationship with porn and lust. It is just so frustrating cuz I made a vow to not get into any relationships before I stop my addictions but it’s a cycle cuz it’s my wanting to be a relationship that at times makes me want to relapse. I just need to be content in the Lord man