Stuck

Hey everyone, I really don’t know how to do this but I’m glad I know I have this problem and that there is a community to help me, but I wanna confess that I have watched porn since prolly 4th grade I am now 22 bout to be 23 and I feel like my brain has infused my emotions with this toxic habit, and I have tried to walk away through willpower and even god I have gone face first praying to have it taken away from me and I’m scared that I’m going to lose my loml and I want kids and I want a family but how can I and I guess my life feels like it’s mine to lose but at the same time was it really in my own hands! idk what it’s like to be in control of my impulse. I want to be better and this is my last resort, but what sucks is that this month is mental awareness month for men and sometimes it doesn’t feel like it is but at least we have each other!