Relapse

Lost a 19 day streak, got real depressed last night and couldn’t shake it this morning so I went to old reliable. I could’ve easily gotten out my bed and done something productive but instead I watched porn. I will say there is a lining of hope, I don’t feel sad disgusted or upset I watched porn and broke my streak which is potentially a sign of change in myself that it doesn’t hold that grip on me as much anymore ? idk but i’m not going to beat myself up because 19 days was the longest i’ve ever been without porn since I was 10 so i’m going to appreciate my progress and learn from this mistake