The hole is always as deep as you left it

Man I’m on day 20 almost 3 weeks in. Tonight after work got close to relapsing and was thinking about how all these weeks would be for nothing and I’d be right back to that shameful pitiful guy I was when I was deep in my addiction. Putting 3 weeks of discipline and fighting lust to waste and returning to a personal hell is always a click away. Stay vigilant.