I’ve realized something

My urges are from a deeper part of my brain whether it’s trauma or anxieties, but I also notice the initiator for my urges always comes from social media. And it’s almost always directed at me, as if the analytics are out to get me and my attention, launching me into this deep whole of a porn hunt. It happens when I get home from a long day or if I have nothing to do during the day. I know that I have to fill my environment with beneficial activities, varying from cleaning my bedroom to even just at least getting out the house. I tried reading books but it doesn’t stimulate my brain like video games, so that’s what I’ve been doing as an alternative. Before this app I’ve relapsed numerous times, gone as far as over a week in not self indulging porn. Then falling into that bottomless pit again and again. The activities have definitely steered me clear. I hope that with everyone’s experience here, I can be motivated to succeed in beating this lonely demon in my mind