This is the worst

I usually don’t post things like this but, 28 days strong I have had a very clear mind. Hitting goals and in my routine, started getting my body back the way I wanted it to look. I could literally control my thoughts and what I thought about anytime I was temped I could control my mind to switch from lust to thinking about something totally different and the thought wouldn’t even come back to mind. Until today I don’t know why I give in I tell myself oh I can control my thoughts so if I look at it just once I won’t again. It’s just one more time I kept telling myself and to an extent that was true I’d see something and be like this is gross and turn it off. Until I didn’t today. I just ask you who see this not for a call for help but to lift me up in your prayers as I will lift all those in this app up in mine. I figured after months of relapsing maybe typing or writing something will also be a way to help me overcome this. I know the things I need to do to stop this I just have to put them into play and instead of me bottling it up and thinking I have to overcome this I cannot through my own strength only through my Lord and Savior Christ Jesus. With this although I have no room to talk, keep strong my brothers keep going💪! You and I will overcome this and already have overcome this through the power and the blood of Jesus Christ! Thank you.