✝️End of day 1, post relapse.
First, thank you to each and every person who commented, encouraged and prayed for me today, I truly felt them and appreciate it so much. ❤️🩹 After hitting basically 2 weeks, I relapsed and the shame was quite overwhelming. Normally, this would be the start of a brutal, self-hate filled spiral, and take a significant chunk of time to get out of. This time, after quite a few tears and many prayers, I came to peace with where I am in my battle against this. I read this in Micah 7, and man, the relief and joy I feel is indescribable. 💖 "Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy. You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea." He *delights* in showing us mercy. Our iniquities are thrown to the sea! I find this to be extraordinarily comforting. Not that I want to be comfortable in my sin, but to truly know that Jesus love me enough to forgive me every single time. - - - - - - - - - - - - I know that today was a particularly hard day for many friends on this app, but I want to encourage you. Turn to Christ, talk to Him. He loves you, He delights in forgiving you and He will give you the strength to stand up and press on. ✝️🤍
Also think of it in this way. This is 1/14 days where you looked at porn. Thats 2 times a month. If you are doing better than you were, than you are slowly beating this addiction!