Day 2
Only day 2 and it sucked. Not cuz of the fact that I wanted to watch porn, but it sucked cuz it was my day off from work and I sat on the couch all day thinking of what porn addiction took away from me. I don’t hang out with friends, I don’t have any real hobbies aside from the gym. I spent over a decade of my life getting my dopamine from watching porn and masturbating that I didn’t pick up any real hobbies through my teenage years. I distance myself from my friends. The goals that I have and wanna work towards, I never start. And I really reflected and thought it today. It’s all cuz my brain gets its dopamine from porn rather than real things of substance and value. This addiction has to end, I don’t care how hard it gets the first 2-3 weeks, the end results will be worth it
Don’t dwell on the past and don’t beat yourself up. Self love and forgiveness to yourself is essential, you are worth it and you can definitely start building the relationships and finding hobbies that are important to you.