Almost 30

I think you're right. It is a lot of things, and boredom does play a part. It's everything at once I think.

First and foremost remain in the finish work its through this place that discipline is formed. You need to stop trying to be disciplined and be more spiritually disciplined. The two sound the same, but in our walk, we are called to be spiritually disciplined because it is through his strength That the stronghold is able to be broken. It might not be instantly for overtime. The things that other people are dealing with, and their season are no different than what you are dealing with and their season. They are still dealing with some type of sin that you can’t see so stop relating yourself and comparing yourself to other people. Your walk is your walk so remain on the path. That God has set before you and walk in faith, knowing that everything he does is for your good whether you see it or not. It’s so easy to look at our struggle as something bad when in reality it is creating us more in his image. Remember that Peter Prayed for God to take away the thorn in his flesh, but God saw it sufficient to leave it because he knew that it was going to grow Peter in a way that he would’ve never been able to otherwise.

You’re exactly where you need to be, everyone goes through life at different stages. I know what you mean, you’re using it as an escape, I did the exact same thing. Instead now I use it as fuel to actually have what others have. I’d think “I need to get this project done, maybe I’ll jerk off then start” and that’s the worst thing I could have done. Idle hands and minds are the biggest problem

Hello Chris, I really resonate with what you’re saying. Why do you think you keep failing? Have you identified what actually makes you want to watch porn? Is it boredom? What is it? God does not test a soul with more than it can bare, you’ll make it out of this darkness sooner than later.