Porn Ruined My Life!

I remember the first time I watched porn. I was probably 13 years old. I had a friend in the neighborhood I would hang out with regularly. One day he showed me what porn was, but little did I know that life would slowly go down hill from there. I had quite a few hobbies through my adolescence, lots of friends, and I pulled plenty of girls. Over time, my porn habit had started to gain more and more control over my life. I was watching more graphic porn as time went on. The process of destruction was so slow that I was unable to even detect it. By my 3rd year in high school, I had already started to notice changes in my life. Less friends, worse relationships in general, lack of ambition, failing classes. I had a marijuana addiction back then, which definitely may have had an influence on this, but I managed to overcome that struggle. However, as more years went by, I noticed that I was still lacking motivation, depressed at times, and my ability to even walk up to talk to women had basically vanished. I recently just turned 30, and although I’ve built somewhat of a successful life, I have a constant feeling nagging me that I’m not doing good enough. In recent years, I have learned about how bad porn is for the brain, and everything started to make sense on what I was experiencing. Unfortunately, at this point my brain is so wired to seek use porn that I have basically given up. It’s definitely a counterproductive thing to thing, but this is just the reality. I have tried prayer, sometimes fasting, talking to close friends who managed to overcome it, all just to end up back in the same spot. It’s a sad thing to see when everyone in your life is progressing at light speed and all you have to show for yourself is a porn addiction and some mediocre amount of money to your name. I have made the decision to try this app out, and hopefully something will change, although as bad as it sounds, I don’t expect change at this point. Porn has to be the worst thing ever created by mankind.