Idk

I'm hoping other people can relate to this, im not sure why im even trying anymore. I guess just because I know it's bad but that's it. I don't have a strong drive to quit. I'm 27, adult content found me when I was 11. I was just a little kid. I’ve been watching it pretty consistently since then. If there was a stat that showed how many hours I’ve consumed adult videos, it would be some ridiculous number. Despite that I feel like I managed to not get too damaged. I've read stories about people who just fry their brains and are never the same. I feel numb these days, I don't want to watch it anymore. I don't want it to have a hold on me. I feel numb and frustrated with myself. I feel like a loser and a creep. I don’t want to spend time with anyone, I just want to be alone.