BIG moment on my journey

believe it or not, even though i’ve been porn free for quite some time, this is the first time that I had to fight the urge in a moment I was very scared to be in but knew it would come. for all this time i’ve been on this journey of becoming porn-free I have been most scared of the moments where Ill be alone at home, with my girlfriend out of the house. because I know THESE were the moments where I got bored, laying in bed, ending up watching porn/tiktok to masturbate. but, this whole time I have timed everything I do within my day in that way that I would always be out of the house when my girlfriend also was - for the past 75+ days. yes. crazy - but that’s what I did. kept my mind busy, being outside, studying, running, walking, reading outside. because, think about it: would you relapse outside? while being busy? would you relapse when running? no. would you relapse when reading by the river? no. nevertheless, I knew this moment would come - that was today. my girlfriend left early for uni, I had some things to do at home: pack packages, shower, pack my things to leave soon. 30 mins of time I would’ve used horribly different some time ago, kept my mind busy, showered (personal best time (but i’m clean don’t worry)), packed my packages, got dressed, packed my stuff, filled up my water bottle, left. I successfully fought the urges. I’m so proud. Be proud of yourself for things that might seem little for many - that’s what keeps you going!!! 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️