I’m getting weak

Consider getting Brick and putting the brick somewhere that would give you time to think.

Have someone setup parental controls and let them use a password you don’t know or something

Im praying for you Gabriel. I don’t know how old you are or living space. But if the goon urges become too much, then get a hold of yourself and take a walk. Go downstairs and sit with your family.

You’re in my prayers Gabriel, look to Jesus and he’ll save you