16 days down the drain
I’ve been home from college on spring break for a few days and I knew going into it that I would face temptation because I’m in a familiar environment during a week of rest. I was driving home and was hit with this wave of temptation. Nothing else mattered. I didn’t turn to God. I didn’t use the app to help me. I didn’t even turn on any music. I just sat in it without doing anything and I failed. I’m so frustrated with myself because I knew I would face this, and yet I did nothing to stop it. It’s like I was looking at a storm coming directly towards my house and just stood on the porch sipping a cup of coffee while it came my way. I need to find ways to stay busy and stay accountable during my time home. I have less to focus on, which is nice because I can rest, but it also means the enemy has more chances to attack me. I ask for prayer and for encouragement as I pick myself back up and keep pushing forward. “Oh Heavenly Father, bear witness as I show you the strength of Your creation.”
16 days is an achievement. Even if you lost one little battle. You haven’t lost the war. If you keep going and just add 1-2 days to each and every streak, there’ll be point where you look back and be surprised how many days you didn’t waste PMOing even if it wasn’t all in one perfect streak. Don’t listen to the people comparing streaks and showing off and insisting you’re a failure if you relapse. Just relapse, accept the challenge, embrace the journey and start again. You got this.