Journey so far
Day 4
by Preston
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Only 4 days in and I am reminded why I struggle to continue on the path to recovery. Not my first time trying to quit porn, longest I’ve made it is 3 weeks and I’ve probably been addicted for 15 years. The numbness is starting to set in. Desire is starting to dwindle. Nothing excites me, no erections. The temptation for me seems to only lie the attempts to feel something, even if momentarily. I don’t know what’s on the other side of this. I have a feeling it’s transformative work, both constructive and destructive. But when your foundation of desire is rotting, the best thing you can do is burn it all down. I’m slowly watching the rot burn away, waiting to start building anew. Pray for me, I’ll pray for us
I’ve only started this journey a couple days ago and so far so good. I’ve been watching that stuff for about half my life, and considering I’m 19 that’s a very bad thing. I’ll keep you in my prayers, stay strong and keep it up!