You don’t have to feel like it

I’ve found that I don’t really feel like quitting. But there’s discipline in knowing that I NEED to quit. The thoughts and feelings I am experiencing tell me that there’s nothing wrong with porn and that there’s no reason to quit, but feelings are fickle. In therapy I’ve begun to learn that we can learn from every part of ourselves, both past and present. For example I am starting to learn a lot about myself from exploring what past parts of me have to say… parts of me that I shut out for a long time. I started this journey 3 weeks ago. That’s not that long ago, but it’s enough time to learn from the experience. I (from three weeks ago) was convinced and determined to finally beat this addiction and to take control of my life. I (from two weeks ago) started to notice already how impactful the absence of porn can be on motivation, discipline, joy, love, emotions, mental health, depression, and overall mood. I am finding things that I am passionate about, activities I enjoy, succeeding in work, and growing in faith. So, why would I rip that away from myself just because today’s FEELINGS don’t agree with the determination and resolve of the past weeks. Why would I trust a FEELING in the moment over a DECISION I’ve already made and committed myself to? I just thought this might be helpful to share. Pray for me on this journey, and I’m praying for you all as well!