Do not count the days

Hello friend, I am 19 I had struggled with jerking off since I was 14, I have tried quitting on my own will power and I have FAILED. God met me in my lowest and said “try me” I had nothing and nobody to lose so I gave him a chance. A chance to heal me, a chance to enter my life and give him full control and glory. This can’t be done without Him trust me, the urges come because we are primal beings and if we can’t have sex we will find alternatives to release and satisfy ourselves. It is disturbing and disgusting and anyone who has reached the point of hating themselves for it can vouch. The Lord knows that you are struggling and he isn’t asking for perfection but please give him a chance to be the center of your life. I have lost “friends” and girlfriends but I realized I have not lost anything important, often times our “friends” are only that because of shared sin, we feel comfortable around people who live how we do, which is why all my friends are no longer. They didn’t love progressing or Christ, they enjoyed the bond of sin we shared, and since I love Christ he is showing me the reality that I NEVER needed another man or woman to make me feel worth. My sin made me feel like a pig rolling around in a mud puddle. This stuff takes time and patience do not rush anything because nothing is meant to be rushed, pray everyday that’s the beginning to complete better transformation in spirit and in life🙏🏿🙏🏿