Relapsing

Tobin, First off, it’s totally normal to relapse and then relapse a LOT! Sometimes for a few days, sometimes longer. It’s part of being human. You are not bound or required to follow this part of human nature, however…just know that it’s normal and VERY DIFFICULT to fight against. You may not have the tools you need (yet) to break out of this right away, and that’s okay. You’re working on getting better. And there’s help for you! First off, know that you are not alone, either in experiencing this, or in fighting to break free. You are not alone in struggling to get free and you will not be alone in succeeding! You will find a TON of support in the group chat on Telegram…I really encourage you to spend a lot of time there…people give you real time support. For the right now, Man it’s tough. I’m at 100 days porn free—which is awesome!…but I’ve recently decided to add no-fap to my goal. I only tried that one time before in my life. I was at 23 days, 2 short of my PR of 25 and “refapsed” (fapped) last night…and now, tbh, I don’t hardly feel bad. Fr, I want to go at it again a few more times before i start another streak! Remember the human nature? I’m not going to (I hope). How? Like the no porn…I’m going to values and why I’m doing this…I want to go no fap so that I can heal my mind more completely from the porn before my wife and I eventually get back to intimacy (we are on hold because she can’t handle intimacy with me because of my mental and health instability—especially before I went no-porn—I was suicidal and often got deathly sick where I would end up in hospital, not knowing if I’d live through the night—6 times since I had covid in mid-2021). I haven’t had either kind of crisis since February, so I’m hoping we can get back together soon…and I hope my mind can be healed from the porn -ED enough that I can perform as a man should…if I can go no-fap between now and then, it should help. Now, I also have a 5 page list of Urge Busters & resets that help with getting your mind off of whatever it’s stuck on—life saver for urges, anxiety, etc. You can DM me for that, and I post it in GC now and then as welll. Sorry for the novel answer. My head hurts and I can’t filter/condense rn. I hope you were able to handle reading and it helps