Back to Day 0: No More “One Last Time” 😬

I relapsed today. I was bored and vacant during work from home. I didn’t watch porn or nudes, I watched a sexy YouTube video. But it was still screen-based arousal. Still a relapse. Usually after a session like this, one that didn’t feel “good enough”, I’d tell myself, “I’ll go for one more later, something better. Then I’ll quit for real.” That lie has kept me stuck for years. But today feels different. I’m done chasing the perfect “last one.” I see that it doesn’t exist. It never has. There’s no such thing, it’s just a trick and excuse our addicted mind is telling us to give in to porn. Even the best sessions didn’t help me quit. They only fed the cycle. So this time, I’m not giving in to that thought. No more “one last time”. No more fake promises. The time to quit isn’t later or tomorrow. It’s now. And it starts here. Please wish me success. I aim to reach my first 30 days of no porn and masturbation.